Sadokist issues apology statement; his future in esports a question mark
The collective internet and esports community was left stewing in a whirlwind of mixed opinions that included outrage and support over the last 48 hours, after prominent CS:GO caster Matthew "Sadokist" Trivett had a severe lapse in character while streaming.
Just hours ago, Sadokist released his public apology on Facebook, where he went into great depth at how he had failed himself and the community as a whole, to represent the industry and it's patrons in the correct manner.
The apology began with him admitting his wrong doing, and his utter shock at his own behavior:
The other night I spoke out of turn, and out of character. I was someone that I do not approve of, and someone that I do not recognize. I do not identify with anyone who would use derogatory and hateful language to belittle any individual, and I do not identify with someone who would wish harm on another individual, no matter what wrongs I feel they have done to me in the past. I have betrayed myself, and I am disgusted, disappointed, and in disbelief at my own actions.
Throughout the apology, he made sure to address every issue his outburst had raised, from expressing his disdain for any sort of racism, to his hypocritical behavior after chastizing others for similar faults.
In one of the more lengthy sections of the post, he gave additional insight to his harsh language directed at community member Don Haci. While still clearly at odds with the him, he conceded that "suicide and mental health are both far too serious of an issue to speak crudely about."
Amidst the apology, Sadokist brought up little spoken of dilemma of online anonymity leading to an "unfair amount of goading, harassment, and even personal privacy violations" of public figures in esports and throughout society. While some may see this an apology derailing, it's undoubtedly a valid and relevant point that raises awareness to a more systemic problem with the online culture.
Sadokist revealed that he has already been in talks with current and former employers, being given the opportunity by those who had contacted him to have his go at making amends himself with the community. He noted that he would respect any further punishment or judgement from employers regarding this incident without further appeal.
In closing, the esports figure announced that he would no longer be attending the upcoming ESL Pro League broadcast for this weeks matches beginning April 3rd. He plans to use this downtime to further evaluate himself and his place in CS:GO and esports as a whole, a sentiment that he says he has strongly considered moving on from for some time.
His final words were simple and hopeful: "It’s up to you whether or not you choose to follow, but I will do my best to lead."
